I Know Who I Am

I just want to thank God because finally I am starting to know my worth and my value the way God wants me to. I still struggle sometimes because as much as it's good to be humble, it's not OK to feel as though you are not good enough or not worthy enough and sometimes not even pretty enough. There isn't anything about my appearance that I would like to change because I am created in God's image (and beauty fades anyway Proverbs 31:30)  but there are things about my confidence and how I allowed myself to be treated by others; the way I allow people's actions towards me to make me feel. I should not be defining myself based on how a person treats me, that just isn't cool. 

The bible says that I am beautifully and wonderfully made (Psalms 139:14) and that I am a chosen person a royal priesthood and I am God's special possession (1 Peter 2:9) I am a child of God (John 1:12) I am the Daughter of a King (Galatians 3:26).

“You are not defined by your feelings. You are not defined by the opinions of others. You are not defined by your circumstances. You are not defined by your successes or failures. You are not defined by the car you drive, or the money you make, or the house you say you own (even though the bank really owns it). - Rick Warren”

Rejection also made me feel as though I wasn't good enough; it made me question myself and I truly felt like I just had to do everything I could to try and stand out to that person. I allowed myself to be picked up and dropped whenever it suited that person (I did that for like 2 years)  when really I should have just had the strength to say this just isn't what I want, I am worth more than this and I am going to wait for the right God-ordained person.

I remember when I used to see this other guy and he would pretend that he didn't speak to me when we were around people and made it seem like he actually never spoke to me at all. Can you imagine how I felt as an already insecure person? lol,  he was going church every Sunday and I was already under the illusion that everyone that goes to church was a Christian and trusted him to be so I was very wrong. I really did feel so low them times, I would go home and cry, I was so crushed inside because I was allowing the way a person treated me to define who I am.  

Your value is not in relationships, friends or even family; your value lies with what God has said about you. He gave His only begotten son for you, what more do you need to know that you are valued?

You all were bought at a great price, so do not become slaves of people. (1 Corinthians 7:23)

You have to constantly remind yourself about what God says about you daily, especially if you are someone like myself whose self-esteem was like a seesaw. Learn to see yourself through the eyes of Christ. You've got to have some pride in yourself, if you don't you leave yourself vulnerable to other people telling you who you are. You are who God says you are and no one else can tell you any different. 

Isaiah 43:4 says "you are precious in my eyes and I love you" God is always demonstrating our value throughout the bible, there is only one you and there will never be another you, there is no one like you that has ever lived and there never will. Even the hairs on your head he has counted, God says you are more valuable to Him than a flock of Sparrows.

It is so important to understand how God sees you, pray and ask God to consistently show you your worth, spend some alone time trying to understand who He has created you to be and how He feels about you. Ask God to teach you how to love yourself because if you don't love yourself you will find it very hard to love others. You are worth the pursuit because God is still pursing you, focus on God in the mean time - study, watch sermons about what God says about you. 

God will not fail you and as long as it is God ordained everything will work out for you. The Lord will fulfill His promises to you, the destiny of the Lord will locate you...